Projects unfinished

by exercisebeforeknitting

When Laura Belle stopped knitting

One year ago this week, Aaron’s 94-year-old grandmother passed away. Laura Belle was one of my favorite people. In addition to being spry and fiesty, she had a wonderfully sunny disposition that always seemed to draw crowds. Laura Belle was an accomplished quilter and many of the bed coverings in our house bear the marks of remnant fabrics she scavenged from textile mills near her home in rural Alabama. Her quilts demand another post entirely, one that may come before too long; this post needs to be about her knitting. When she moved to an apartment and stopped quilting, Laura Belle turned to knitting and crochet to keep her hands in shape. Her most recent project was to knit full size afghans for each of her children, grandchildren and great grandchildren. When she was dying, she expressed regret over not finishing the last afghan. As the only knitter in the family, I promised her I would complete it. This is where you and I begin.

Laura Belle's afghan for Lisa

Laura Belle had finished just about three of seven or eight pattern repeats when she died, although her last few rows were pretty rocky. I could tell she had really tried to finish but her mind was not in it. Knowing how she would have scowled at aberrant cables and mistakenly purled stitches, I considered ripping out her last few rows and re-knitting them. I let them alone only because I knew how hard they had been for her to knit. Some family members wanted me to put a line of contrasting yarn where her work ended and mine began, a task that struck me as too morose. I began knitting where she left off, which is what I think she would have preferred.

Only three repeats in...

The pattern itself was cobbled together from a collection of cabled stitch patterns she liked. To my horror, Laura Belle had written the pattern out line by line with no cable chart.

Tens of pages of handwritten instructions, line by line

Leafing through tens of pages of handwritten instructions, I found some interesting margin notes that filled out what else was happening in the background as Laura Belle knit. Sometimes, she jotted down a word with its definition, as if she had learned its meaning in a book or in a conversation as she knit. Other times, she wrote down phone numbers or the ages of someone’s children. Here, she had written a blood pressure reading, dated a few weeks before she died.

Blood pressure

My favorite note is one I do not understand:

No no-no

“No no-no”. Does it refer to the pattern? Is she warning herself about a difficult section? Or something unrelated to knitting? I will never know but always wonder.

Unfinished work finished

I finished the afghan, although I stopped at five pattern repeats instead of the seven or eight that Laura Belle had planned. I would have liked to knit it to full size but for the sake of family peace and because non-knitters have different project timelines than knitters, I ended it early. I am sure she would be happy to know that her last afghan is currently in transit to its designated recipient.

Laura Belle's finished afghan for Lisa

This was a hard project to work on because the knitting made me sad. Casting off her last project seemed to be my duty as a fellow knitter, as if there were some unspoken code of ethics in the craft.  After all, who does not feel trapped in knitting purgatory as unfinished projects mount? As knitters, we should all have someone to complete our works in progress when we die. Even though I felt sad knitting this, the satisfaction of binding off was great. I know Laura Belle too would be relieved to know it was done.